(eṇ thoughts) today when not having any (better) thoughts in the mind (to do something to break the cycle of birth, etc., or try some means for that, etc.); was doing same things as before; there was not something that ī could do; —
without seeing (your) disqualification and without feeling shy (seeing the overwhelming motherly love of those who worship the vathsalan (emperumān who is like a mother) —