attaining the supreme being who is like the most enjoyable nectar —

what if we get it? —

becoming weak —

weakened —

losing my complexion —

attaining a miserable state —

reaching the end —

 attained —

 and go through all the sorrows in front of ḥim which ī went through in ḥis absence, —

going into a trance —

descended/took —

acquire —

attain —

being the one who is having —

and attain —

if we get —

(ī am) not concerned whether such place is attained; —

the qualities that are attained —

acquired —

got —