What a fool am I to hold out my tongue and long in my heart to behold Your exquisite form and look around for You, knowing full well that You, who pervade all around and at all times, will not grace me with Your presence, not even in my body, soul, limbs, and other parts!
Explanatory Notes
(i) Āzhvār to the Lord: “My Lord, You don’t make yourself visible unto poor me, despite Your pervading among other things my entire being, because You are not so inclined. This is quite evident and yet, I keep looking for You in all directions, like the innocent children aspiring for things they can’t have, holding out their tongues all the time, unable to conceal their + Read more
Word by Word (WBW) meaning
(The words may be rearranged to facilitate poetry to prose conversion (Aṉvayam). Please read the meanings (in black) continiously to form the sentence and understand the simple meaning of those verse.)
ākkai ul̤l̤um — in the heart which is inside my body; āvi ul̤l̤um — inside the āthmā (soul) (which is the controller of that body); alla — beyond these two (and being the faculties of such āthmā); puṛaththin ul̤l̤um — indhriyas (senses) etc (which are outside the true self); nīkkam inṛi — without missing anything; engum — everywhere; ninṛāy — ŏh one who stood (as the antharāthmā (in-dwelling super soul))!; ninnai — you; unnai — you (who is having enjoyable form); kāṇbān — to see with my eyes; nŏkki nŏkki — looking forward constantly; yān — ī (who is desirous); enadhu — my; āvi ul̤l̤ĕ — in my heart; nākku nīl̤van — will desire for that;; gyānam — knowledge (that -antharāthmā is beyond the reach of our senses-); illai — due to not having.; naṛu — abundantly fragrant; thuzhāy — having thiruththuzhāy (thul̤asi)
Detailed WBW explanation
Highlights from Nampil̤l̤ai's Vyākhyānam as documented by Vadakkuth Thiruvīdhip Pil̤l̤ai
Nokki Nokki - "I will repeatedly look in the direction of your arrival."
Question: What is the reason for his constant looking in that direction?
Answer:Unnaik kāṇbān - Due to the desire to see you.
Yān ... - "When a person is desirous of something,